Deepest Thoughts

Monday, September 06, 2004:

hello...hm wow three day weekends are soo weird. I keep thinking today is a sunday. O man...where did these days go...its like all I did was go to borders and study...gosh i'm such a nerd. three days in a row, I went to borders and studied, and accomplished absolutely nothing. its like...the story of my life.

doing things...and never really accomplishing nething of importance.

this week I realized I really love my grandma. She is such a great woman of god. She's my hero and I look up to her so much even though I get into arguments with her and get mad at her alot. I can't believe I took her for granted so much, she's just so amazing and it's hard to imagine what life would be like without her. Death is inevitable, and it scares me so much. Everytime I ring the doorbell and I get no response I freak out...i think thats def something i'm so afraid of, but i know that when that day comes i'll be ok cuz i know where she'll be. where god is.

people need to understand that if they're not invited somewhere, they shouldn't try to invite themselves...there was a reason they werne't informed...

well I've been raelizing lately how great my friends are. They are so awesome. And yes they can be disappointing and be dumb and stupid but we're all human. I miss hanging out with a alot of them. I feel like this year is definitely a year for me to grow a lot closer to my friends and just meet new people and develop new relationships and continue to keep them growing. People are amazing once u really get to know them. Throw them all away...the preconceptions, the past, the judgements. I really do love them all...

ok...well i'm goign to be very jumpy in this post. but wow. I need to stress less. I need to allow god to take control of my stupid life. I need to stop thinking baout the future and just live. God will take care of me and whatever happens happens. gah i NEED TO ingrain this in my head...well thats all, basically, i studied a lot but got nothing done, i love my grandma, i love my friends, and i need to stress less. haha

Henry // 8:07 PM

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